Monday, December 5, 2011

Going Home

Over the past few months I have simply cherished every moment. Every second that I have been gifted whether it has been good or bad. I count it a joy to be here enjoying this time with my son, my family and friends. I wouldn't trade it for anything. It is the desire of my heart that if the Lord doesn't come back soon He gives me a long, healthy, prosperous life here with my loved ones. That He continues to open doors for me to minister to others and use me to glorify Him.

Today though has been the first time in a long time that I feel like I am ready to go home to my Father in heaven. I have had bad news on every side. Not so much pertaining to me-everything is ok with my health, but pertaining to others I know that are struggling with this terrible disease-cancer.

As I'm laying in bed typing I quite literally feel as if my heart aches. It is so burdened down and heavy for all those afflicted by cancer. I hate this disease. It is ravenous. It seeks to destroy. I really don't even have words to express my heart right now. It is broken for those I love and care for. For strangers. For the children.

I have said to God over and over today..... "Lord, I just don't understand your ways. I know that I am not supposed to, for your ways are not our ways, but Lord, please, do a mighty work here. Please." My heart has cried out all day long. As it does now to you. Friends, there are so many out there that are suffering. I only know a few. I ask prayer for all who suffer, but tonight I specifically ask prayer for Denise. She is battling cancer and right now things are not good. She desperately needs a miracle. I know that He can do it for her because He did it for me. Please pray that He will. Please. I plead, no I beg you to just pray. Also, pray for Nancy who was diagnosed with breast cancer today.

I posted a video as well that has really touched me. I personally relate with this, but can't we all? We all have trials and are either hopping or walking through our valleys. I pray tonight for you.


  1. Jill, you're such a beautiful, strong woman, and an excellent example of God reaching down and touching your life with a miracle. I'm so thankful to know you, and be your friend. Life is full of trials and sadness, and things we don't understand. But, your story and your life is one of the many that are good and uplifting and can give hope to others who are suffering. You are so gifted in expressing your thoughts..I, too, pray you have a long and prosperous life.

  2. I will be praying for Denise. I know how it feels to carry someone's burden with them,and it is tough, but you can be an encouragement to those with cancer than the rest of us could never be because you know their pain. Love you friend, and I'll be praying for you too

  3. Gina had passed along the request for Denise to me and all I could do is sigh with heartache and reply to her that I was so very tired of hearing such awful news...I hate cancer. I'm with you - I just do not understand what the Lord is doing a lot of times and often I find it a struggle to just let go and trust. Praying for you and for Denise.